I yelled.

I made it 6 days without yelling.  I was so proud of myself.  It was feeling easier and I was on a roll.  Then I lost it.  It seems silly now, kind of...We went on a family vacation this last weekend to attend a family reunion.  The weekend went great and then it was time to get out of the hotel and be on our way.  We had 1 hour until check out and my kids all needed showers.  I sent the 3 girls in and checked on them every few minutes.  After 20 minutes of asking them to stop playing and hurry up, I yelled.  I yelled, "Hurry up and get out of the shower right now!"  #2 and #3 get out for me to realize that #2 still had shampoo in her hair and #3's hair was dry!  DRY!  And #1 was in there the longest and still not done.  After I yelled I realized what I'd done and the black and white thinker in me came back.  The quitter in me came back.  "Oh, you've done it now.  You've yelled.  You failed."  I lost my momentum and I yelled more.  It took me that day and the next day to get my brain back on track to try again.  Day 1 (again)-yesterday, went okay.  I didn't yell, but it was back to being hard again.  Back to forgetting and having to remind myself throughout the day so that I wouldn't just yell out of habit.  I can do this!  I know I can.  Today I ordered Orange Rhino bracelets for each member of my family.  And we are going to finally color those rhino pictures orange to hang around the house.  My kids need to learn to stop yelling just as much as I do.  Peace, we all need peace!  It will come...I pray!